Ayyeee ;)
You know that feeling you get when the person you have really strong feelings towards says ‘we need to talk’. That feeling where your stomach just drops, your hair starts going at approximately 150 beats for minute and you can’t hold back your tears knowing what’s going to happen next. When the one person that you don’t stop thinking about, the person you can’t go even 5 minutes without talking to, the person who makes you smile by saying 1 word or just sending you a smiley face. When that one person tells you that they don’t feel like it’s working, at all. And you just crumble. You can’t hold yourself together. You realize that once again, you’re the one that’s left hurt and confused. It’s sort of almost disgusting to see how quickly you can go from meaning everything to then meaning nothing. When you try your hardest to be everything that one person could want and they throw all the effort, hours, replies, thoughts and endless nights smiling, all back in your face. Where do you go from here? Now that it’s over? Who do I say goodnight too? Who do I send love hearts and x’s too? Who do I message when I wake up? Where does this all leave me? No where. Everything reminds me of you. The teddy you got me, the songs you sang, our song, people that go to your school, the photos of you on my iPod. It makes me think of you. And when I think of you, I don’t know how to feel. I’m confused because I don’t see where I went wrong. I’m angry because you lied to me. I’m upset because I have nobody and I loved you and I still do. I’m annoyed because I know it’ll be hard to get over you. I’m pissed off because now everybody will ask what happened and I won’t know what to say, because I don’t even know. I’m happy because now I know that you can be happy. But most of all, I miss you. I miss us. I’m going to miss every moment we spent together. I’m a mess.
(Source: thisislifeliveitup, via fuckit-and-smile-x)
